Well Today I have decided that I am going to start growing my hair out, so I can do dread locks. I started them once before, but my hair was still too short at 6 inches, and the people who helped me do the back of my head fucked them up, so I took them out.  I figure if I take cair of my hair now and keep it up then By the time I graduate and move to Oregon, with muchy and skins, my hair should be somewhere between 6-10 inches, and will be ready for dreading. Cool thing is that in Oregon I can have that hair and get away with it. I can still hold a job, and not be looked at as a freak when I go places ( not that that bothers me.....I meen it's me ). Oregon is a really lax state with shit like that. I should know I lived in it's sister state washington, and visited Oregon often. I meen fuck I saw a hippie walking down the street wairing all tie dye clothes and his huge beard was done in tie dye also. I meen the fucking state is full of hippies. I honestly like hippies. People give them lots of shit. Really their cool people. In Oregon there are a bunch of coast towns that are just Hippie towns, that make all their money off of tourists. I have been in a store that only sold custom toilet paper holders, and light swich covers...................... yeah the whole town was full of shit like that.  I'm really stoked about moving up there. I really miss that area; god it is so much more beautiful up there and it's easier to breath too. I would also get rid of this constant head ach I have here. People here don't understand. unless you have been somwhere closer to sea level. I have lived here for 5 years, and when I pay atention I still notice it. It's probably why I'm so fucking grumpy all the time. I do hate being an ass hole, really I don't wan't to be as rude and testy as I can be, but people get on my nerves quick. expecually if I ain't had a cigarette in a while, O my god people need to back away then because I'm already on the edge of throughing punches then. I notice I have nicky fits mostly in the morning, and at the end of the day. I have been cutting down a lot. I was smoking a pack a day over the summer. because of school ( I won't smoke there) I'm at 1 a day or every other day mon.- thu. but I smoke a lot on the weekends. I need to cut down there. mabby that will help the fits. I have been drinking alot of green tea as of recent. It helps me calm down at night. I need to cut down on the soda's. they make me eritable. I would like to find a girlfriend too. I always feel better with a female companion. I hate being single. It's shitty not having some one there for you, that you can confide in outside of your friends. It was the only thing keeping me going while I was working 2 jobs over the summer, but that relationship got fucked up. O well time to find someone else, and it will be a hard task, because I'm almost 18 and I won't hook up with some one that isn't, and that cuts finding someone from school. I have to look for graduates or college chicks. I need to find a job too. Being unimploid sucks I feel unproductive, and I don't like it. It's just kinda hard to find a job with the echonomics here, mainly because I won't work fast food or phone jobs. I need a ma and pa's restraunt or a job at a store. after college I want to find somthing in the fild of psychology. That is where I want to be. I feel this need to help people through talking and reasoning. Even that would be a hard task to find a job in this town for that. The job market just all around sucks ass here, and that is a reason I am moving with skins and munch to Oregon. Well it's getting late and I have babbled on for way too long. those of you who stuck it out and read this have now had a small look at what floats on the surface of my mind in small piriods of time. Well peace out everyone, I'ma go get some fucking sleep.

that guy, Thomas